Sunday, November 15, 2015
Reasons this blog post is late and short and also kind of unexciting:
I’m somewhat lazy and simultaneously kind of busy. This just might be all over the place.
I’m currently sitting here thinking: What do I write? I always have this combination of nothing and everything swirling through my small brain.
There is a lot of awful shit happening around the world right now. It can leave the mind reeling as if you are wandering through Jurassic Park searching for a phone buried deep in dinosaur dung.
Side note: I actually started writing this blog post before I heard about the attacks in Baghdad, Beirut, Paris, and so many other places. I was thinking a lot about race relations in the United States. About how I went to an incredibly diverse high school and a university with a ways to go in that department. I was thinking about how instead of trying to do something about it, I just left. Then things happen much closer to your new home and you wonder if there’s any “safe” place to be. While trying to figure out in what way I should help (because avoiding these issues is not going to work), I am also trying to reconcile the many things I find important.
If you know me well, you probably know what’s important to me. Some days I want to work in environmental sustainability because without our environment, we have nothing. Some days I want to work for food equality because a child cannot concentrate and learn in school without proper food. Some days I want to work as a teacher or in education reform because someone can take your family, your home, everything you own, but they can never take the knowledge inside your head. Some days I want to work outside because being in nature lends a different perspective and I think overall makes people somewhat nicer. Some days I want to work in development because I think it’s a pretty messed up concept, and since I know it’s messed up, I might be able to help make it somewhat less crappy. Some days I want to work in the United States so I can give back just a bit to a country and community that have given me so much. Some days I want to work abroad because I love immersing myself in different cultures and experiencing a different way of life. Some days I want to work specifically with young children because everything they learn and do plays a role later in life. And some days I want to just be a mom because parenting, if you do it, is the most important role you will ever have.
So right now I’m just happy to be an Au Pair. I may not be doing groundbreaking cancer research or designing a way to keep icebergs from melting, but I’m spending time with children. They represent our future. And if I can have some sort of positive impact on them, then I’m content with that.